A Letter To My Little Love.. 

Sleeping Cinderella
For two years it was just you and I, my little love and me. It doesn’t feel long enough to have you to myself, and for you to have me. By the time your little brother or sister arrives we will have had three years together, and whilst that makes me happy it also makes me sad. I am trying to squeeze the most out of this last year of ours together because I know that in June everything will change forever, all over again. Like that moment when you first arrived and changed mine and daddy’s world forever.

I know that some people say you can’t be both a parent and friend to your child, but we really are like best friends. My heart melted when you said to me the other day that I was like your friend. Because it’s true, I really am your friend as well as your mummy. If we could go everywhere together we would. When you wake in the middle of the night and instinctively call for me I know it’s because you miss me. In all honesty if I could keep you with me all the time I would. It breaks my heart that almost every day I have to leave you with someone else. I hope you know that it’s as hard for me to leave you each morning as it for you.

Everyone says when you have another  you find enough room and love in your heart for two, but I don’t see how. See I love you more than anything in the world and I just don’t see how I could love another the same way that I love you. But I must and logic tells me I will. I’m sure that life will be even better than it is today. That a new little person will only add to the love, joy, fun and laughter. But right now, I can’t just imagine it. See, things are pretty perfect as they are.

I’m worried that this other special little person might change our bond. Might change us, my little love and I. I don’t want you to feel like I love you any less, that I don’t have as much time for you, that someone else is taking your place and your mummy. I worry that I’ll be that mummy that finds it hard to juggle, and balance her time, love and affection for you all. But I want you to know that I’ll try my hardest to make sure you still feel loved and special too, and I promise that will never change.

I still have so many questions about how much our lives will change and whether it really will be for the better. I’m hoping that you will have a new best friend for life, a playmate and someone you adore. That you love, dote on and want to protect like mummy, but even more. I hope that we can find a way to make it even more magical and special when three suddenly become four. You, me, daddy and our newest mini me.

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  1. Tracey Abrahams
    February 1, 2016 / 6:43 am

    I had all those concerns when I was pregnant with my second boy. I had 5 years with my bog boy and he was my world. But it really is the most amazing magical thing. Your heart grows and suddenly there is plenty of room for them in there and just as much love for both. #Marvmindays
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 7:11 pm

      That’s so lovely. I really do hope that it’s the same for me. I’m sure it will be, but I guess it some type of strange mum anxiety that you get, worrying about things that we have no control of or make sense to worry about! 🙂

  2. Katie
    February 1, 2016 / 7:14 am

    This is beautiful. Don’t worry, you will make sure that your bond stays the same… just as special

    #marvmonday
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 7:47 am

      Thank you Katie, I really hope it does and if anything is even better than it is now 🙂

  3. February 1, 2016 / 7:25 am

    such a stunning post. i remember feeling just like this while I was expecting my second, and even for the first few weeks after her little brother was born, but now we are so pleased that she has her own special friend. they have an amazing bond and they’re always there for each other. i know you’ve heard it before, but the love really is doubled, if not more so. they will both be just as precious as your daughter is now, but then you also get to experience the love that they have for each other, and it’s magical.

    dawn x
    #marvmondays
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 7:46 am

      Oh thank you Dawn. I just want to know that everything will be ok and work out fine. I guess in the back of my mind I know it will, but I can’t help but feel so emotional when I think about it. X

  4. February 1, 2016 / 8:07 am

    Aww, it’s great that you have such a special bond with your daughter. I worried about being able to love a second cod too, but I needn’t have worried as I definitely love my second son too. Xx
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 7:10 pm

      Aw thank you, that’s so assuring to read 🙂

  5. February 1, 2016 / 8:42 am

    What a lovely post. It must be so hard when expecting no.2 to imagine how they’ll fit in your life and how your little one will take to them – it’s definitely something I’ve thought about when we discuss having baby no.2 (although it won’t happen for a long time yet!) #marvmondays

    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:29 pm

      Thank you lovely. It definitely is hard to imagine how everything will work and how the family dynamics will change. I guess just like the first time round, you have to go with the flow a little and see what happens! I think I just need to get used to that idea again 🙂

  6. Sara at Handy Herbs
    February 1, 2016 / 9:22 am

    A beautiful post! I know exactly how you are feeling, but honestly don’t worry! I felt like that when pregnant with my second. I now have four and love them all with the same passion that I loved my first. I am sure it is nature’s way for us to love every child when s/he arrives. Life will definitely become more magical 🙂 #MarvMondays
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:30 pm

      Oh wow, I didnt realise you had four little ones! How lovely. If you can feel the same love and special bond with each of your four, then im sure I can figure it out with two 🙂 x

  7. February 1, 2016 / 10:03 am

    The week before Little B was due BB and I spent together doing all the things we loved to do when it was just the two of us – we went to the cinema, ate cake in coffee shops and had lots of cuddles on the sofa because I knew life would never be quite the same again! I always remember that weekx #marvmondays
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:28 pm

      That sounds so special. I think I’d like to do something similar, it sounds perfect 🙂

    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:27 pm

      Thanks for sharing your post, I will definitely have a read. Its so helpful to read about others similar experiences 🙂

  8. February 1, 2016 / 10:44 am

    A beautiful post and I remember feeling exactly the same before my second arrived and now I can’t imagine it any other way and it is lovely to see my two daughters together playing and laughing. #marvellousmondays
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:26 pm

      It sounds so magical, I cant imagine anything nicer when you think about and look at it like that 🙂

  9. February 1, 2016 / 11:14 am

    Oh that made me so tearful. Beautiful picture and beautiful words to match -her little face just made my heart melt. It’s so hard and nothing prepares you. i remember the day well and as it was a planned section i knew the last day I had to spend with my daughter as just me and her – i put so much pressure on it to be special but just felt sad all day – bit I shouldn’t have done as when my other little girl was born my eldest could not have loved her more – it was so beautiful to watch her grow and flourish around her baby sister – nothing prepares you for that love you feel for them having to be that little bit more grown up almost without any help. Wishing you all the best and enjoy every magical moment. #MarvellousMondays xx
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:25 pm

      Aww thank you. I can imagine probably doing a similar thing and I think I just need to let go and enjoy the time we have before baby arrives, but at the same time get ready for something even more special to unfold in our family. I have been worrying too much about what we might lose (time as a 2/3) rather than what we will gain as a bigger family and the special new bonds that will develop 🙂

  10. February 1, 2016 / 12:19 pm

    This is such a lovely post! I worry the same things really, because it seems so incredible I could love anything as much as my daughter. But then I remember how much I worried I wouldn’t bond or anything with her before she came along x
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:20 pm

      That is so true, it probably isnt too dissimilar from the first time worries you have about whether you will bond with your baby or not. I guess I still worry that I may not be as lucky second time around and may have a harder time but hopefully it will all be as special and magical as the first time round 🙂

  11. Laura @dearbearandbeany
    February 1, 2016 / 12:52 pm

    A lovely post and i think that every mum feels like this when they get pregnant the second time, you love your little one so much that you can’t imagine doing it twice. But, you really do, it’s overwhelming the love that you will feel for both your little ones. Plus you get to watch the love that your little ones will have for each other and that is very special. Your bond will always be the same, that won’t change, you will just find new ways of having your special moments together. Enjoy this time, and congratulations x

    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:18 pm

      Aww that is so lovely. Reading you comment makes me feel so much more relaxed, and actually a little excited about experiencing and watching this unfold in our little family, thank you 🙂 x

  12. February 1, 2016 / 2:41 pm

    This is so lovely. I felt EXACTLY the same when I was pregnant with my second, I was just so scared that I wouldn’t love the baby the same way as I did my eldest or that our bond would somehow change. It didn’t, it became even more special as it added a new dimension to our family. You have so much to look forward to, I cant wait to hear all about it. #KCACOLS
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:14 pm

      Oh thank you Laura, thats so reassuring to hear. Its hard when youre pregnant because you over think and anayse everything, but hopefully im worrying over nothing and itll all be fine in the end 🙂

  13. February 1, 2016 / 3:50 pm

    what a lovely and honest letter! it’s one of my fears too about not loving a second the way you love the first! Thanks for Linking up to #KCACOLS hope to see you back next sunday 🙂 x
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:13 pm

      Thank you! No matter how much I know in the back of my mind that itll probably be a great and lovely thing, I still cant help but feel anxious about it. Hopefully the anxiety will dissapear not too long after baby arrives 🙂

  14. February 1, 2016 / 5:21 pm

    I hate twee sayings but the one about having a second child (‘your love doesn’t half; it doubles’) really is true. And one of the most amazing things about being a parent is seeing your kids bonding and playing with each other. It’s just incredible.

    #MarvMondays
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 9:12 pm

      It sounds incredible. So many people have said a really similar thing. It sounds so special, I cant wait to watch it 🙂

  15. February 1, 2016 / 6:58 pm

    This is absolutely beautiful.. can I blame the pregnancy hormones for it making me cry? I’m sure everything will work out perfect! xx #marvmondays

    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 7:35 pm

      Aww thanks lovely. You can most definitely blame the pregnancy hormones, sorry for making you cry! 🙂

  16. February 1, 2016 / 9:33 pm

    Baby number two will be the perfect addition to your little team. Seeing our two girls bond has to be the singles best thing of becoming a mummy. Xxx #marvmondays

    • My Petit Canard
      February 2, 2016 / 10:18 pm

      Aww, in my heart I know that it will be the most amazing and wonderful thing that can happen for our little family 🙂

  17. February 1, 2016 / 9:44 pm

    I only have the one so can’t offer any advice, but I think your fears are to be expected. I hope it goes as well for you as you hope and the transition isn’t too difficult for you all.
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 1, 2016 / 10:44 pm

      Thank you lovely. It seems thats the case from the comments others have left after reading this post. It sounds like it will all work out fine and this is just part of the normal anxieties of becoming a parent again second time round 🙂

  18. February 2, 2016 / 11:10 am

    Aww such a beautiful post!The one thing that terrified me before baby number 2 was how on earth will I love them as much?But you just do.It is hard to leave them isn’t it,I always feel guilty too x #kcacols

    • My Petit Canard
      February 2, 2016 / 10:14 pm

      Thank you. Its sounds like thats pretty much what happens :-). Im feeling so much more at ease having read so many lovely comments like thes,e thank you x

  19. February 2, 2016 / 1:01 pm

    Lovely post. I’ve just got the one child so haven’t got any advice, but think your fears are completely understandable and most people reading will relate to them. I’m a great believer in things working themselves out and i’M SURE THIS WILL. tHERE ALWAYS SEEMS ENOUGH LOVE TO GO ROUND. 🙂

    • My Petit Canard
      February 2, 2016 / 10:15 pm

      I believe the same thing too, and its always worked out to be true in most if not every case. Im sure it will be fine, I just cant help but let my emotions get the best of me right now. Im sure it will be completly amazing 🙂

  20. February 2, 2016 / 4:47 pm

    I had all of these concerns, and more. It’s strange and I know probably of little comfort for you, but once baby gets here you wonder what life was like without them in it!xxx
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 2, 2016 / 10:16 pm

      Oh I remember that the first time round. My husband and I are always talking about how it feels like our little lady has always been around how things are so much more wonderful since she has been. The pre-children days are a distant memory and hopefully itll be a similar story second time round too 🙂

    • My Petit Canard
      February 3, 2016 / 10:10 pm

      Thanks lovely. It sounds like its fairly normal to go through these motions when youre expecting number two.. Doesnt make it any easier though! x

  21. Rachel (Lifeathomewithmrsb.com)
    February 3, 2016 / 8:46 pm

    I remember those thoughts when i was pregnant with Miss m. it’s only natural to worry. i’m sure you’ll love both of your children the same and your worries will be no more 🙂 #kcacols

    • My Petit Canard
      February 3, 2016 / 10:11 pm

      Thank you, im sure that will be the case! Maybe I can blame it on the pregnancy emotions 🙂

  22. February 4, 2016 / 6:18 pm

    This was so touching to read! I can’t imagine ever loving another little person as much as I would love Luke, but I know it must be possible – I guess it’s one of those things that just happens. When I had Luke I was so scared I wouldn’t instantly love him but it was such a weird feeling, one moment I was me and I could do whatever, seconds later my I knew my life would revolve around this tiny human. Ray X #twinklytuesday

  23. Mommy's Little Princesses
    February 6, 2016 / 11:42 am

    What a beautiful and truly precious bond you and your daughter share! I think this post Is just so lovely, it’s filled with so much love too. I’m sure that you’ll love your new mini me just as you love your daughter now. And as for your daughter I’m sure she’ll love her new sibling too. Xx #KCACOLS
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    • My Petit Canard
      February 7, 2016 / 11:19 pm

      Oh thank you. We have such a special relationship, but im sure I will love our new little person just as much as this one. Its just hard to imagine having that much love for anyone else, but I guess you just make room in your heart somehow. Im sure itll all just happen and at some point Ill look back and wonder what I was worrying about. At least thats what Im hoping will happen 🙂 x

  24. absolutely prabulous
    March 2, 2016 / 8:09 pm

    Beautiful post. Your heart does totally love all of them (I have 3) but to my shame I must admit that I do have my favourite. But that’s due to the personality of the child and not due to loving the others any less.
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