Where to begin? Some of you may have noticed that I have quietly disappeared from this blog, and much of social media of the last few months. Which is no coincidence with the fact that I recently returned to work after 12 rather fantastic months of maternity leave. It hasn’t been intentional, because if it was it would have been better planned. I mean I would have at least had the courtesy to let you, my dear readers know what on earth has been going on. But it seems that I may have underestimated and forgotten the juggle that is going back to work full time after maternity leave.
Life has been busy, chaotic, overwhelming… that sounds pretty awful but it isn’t. It’s actually quite the opposite. I’m happy. Really happy. I’m in a job I love and I’m happy with my professional success despite having two very young children. But I realise now that it comes at a price. At least temporarily, and that seems to be at the expense of my blog which I love because I don’t quite seem to have figured out how to do, and have it all.
At first I didn’t notice it. I was overwhelmed with pick ups and drop offs, running in and out of the city without a minute to spare everyday, making sure I gave every ounce of energy and love that I had left at the end of each day to my beautiful family and generally throwing myself into proving my worth as a professional and as a mother each and every day. But this blog is important to me, my readers are important to me, the brands I work with are important to me and I realised I’ve started to miss who I am as a blogger and as a creative.
Yet whilst I have missed it I have to admit, I have also quite enjoyed the disconnect from social media. From FOMO and the endless comparisons that I cant help but make between myself and others, between my blog and others blogs. There is something freeing about not seeing what others are up to every moment of every day. Going off the grid, going incognito and completely enjoying and being present in your life. Its been refreshing and I totally recommend that everyone try it. Because as much as I love social media, and believe me I love it dearly to the point of addiction, I do think there is a balance to be had, one that hopefully I’ll be better at finding this time round.
So it feels like this could be the start of a whole new journey, one that I am ready to share with any of you lovely lot that have stuck around despite my inability to be even a semi decent blogger (sorry!) over these last few weeks and months. But I think I’m finally turning that corner and ready to get back to business, and hopefully some of you will join me…