The last two weeks of pregnancy, weeks 18 – 19 have been pretty uneventful. I still wait patiently for baby kicks, meanwhile watching my tummy slowly grow and grow. We have our 20 week scan next week which I am really looking forward to. The absence of real kicks has added to my anxiety which seems to be a feature of this pregnancy, so every opportunity that I get to hear or see this baby is a welcome one.
The biggest decision we need to make at the moment is whether or not we will find out the gender of the baby at our 20 week scan. During our first pregnancy with the little lady we chose not to find out, mainly because I really wanted it to be a surprise. I’d always imagined having that moment where the doctor/nurse/husband yells out whether it’s a boy or girl. I’d love to repeat that and keep it a surprise too this time around, but the husband really wants to know what we’re having so we’re actually considering finding out. I can see the benefits of both finding out and keeping it a secret so I’m a little bit torn and have a feeling that this decision might be down to the wire!
Otherwise my bump seems to be growing at a healthy rate, perhaps a little too healthily when I compare this bump to the same period in my last pregnancy. I’m definitely a little bigger this time around, I’d say maybe by a week or two compared to my first pregnancy. The shape of this bump seems to be a little different too, more round and ball like. There are definitely times, depending on what I’m wearing where I feel like I might be smuggling a basket ball under my clothes! I’m guessing that’s either because I’ve already had one pregnancy and everything has moved once already, or because the baby is maybe in a different position. One of the things that they spotted in our 12 week scan was that I had an anterior placenta which could possibly be part of the reason why my bump is the shape it is, and explain why I can’t feel much movement yet. I suspect it may not have moved but am hoping to find out for sure next week at our scan.
In terms of my overall pregnancy, I’m definitely getting to the stage where I need some comfortable maternity wear. I’m still just about able to wear my normal jeans, but it isn’t very comfortable and I actually feel really bad for the baby when I wear them as I keep thinking that I must be squashing them. However, I seem to be in that awkward stage where I am getting too small for my normal clothes, but am not quite big enough for my maternity clothes which is annoying. All the maternity bits I’ve ordered from Jo Jo Maman, Next and Gap seem to be huge so I’ve changed tactics and bought a few non maternity clothes that are loose and stylish like shift dresses, or stretchy and comfy like knitted dresses.
I’ve also finally got round to buying some pregnancy essentials which I vlogged about like non underwired bras, a pregnancy pillow and far too many tubs of bump cream. Now that I have them, I can’t believe how I managed without them all for so long! We haven’t yet bought any new baby bits yet, but I expect we will once we’ve had our 20 week scan. Just like the first time round we’ve held off until this point to buy anything, although not intentionally so I’m starting to get a little bit excited about buying some new baby clothes which I can’t wait to involve the little lady in.
Generally, pregnancy seems to be going quite well now. The food aversions and cravings seem to have tailed off. The awful first trimester nausea and exhaustion have disappeared and im starting to feel much more like myself. But along with the second trimester has come the terrible sleep, my old pregnancy friend insomnia and frequent night time bathroom trips. However, I’d much rather all of these than the nausea and exhaustion that I had in the early days of pregnancy.
It’s hard to believe that technically we’re half way through this pregnancy as it still feels quite surreal most of the time, but I’m really looking forward to the next few weeks as it feels like lots of exciting things might start to happen. I have no idea whether my next pregnancy post will be another update or a gender reveal so watch this space!