The Third Trimester Fog…

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Last night I went to bed at 9.30pm. I don’t remember the last time I went to bed that early. Probably in my first trimester. After having my whooping cough injection yesterday afternoon, come early evening I was feeling like I’d been hit like a bus, physically unable to keep my eyelids open by the time 9pm rolled round. A coincidence or a side effect of the jab, who knows. But waking up this morning I felt like sleeping beauty waking up from a long, deep slumber. Although there were one or two trips in the middle of the night to the kitchen for a drink and then the toilet, so it can’t have been that deep a slumber. But it was definitely enough that I felt rested.

Waking up this morning has been a revelation. It feels like a huge fog has shifted from above me. Because with the third trimester has come tiredness, uncontrollable hormones and what has felt like pretty grey days recently. Which have been compounded by increasing comments at work about how big I am getting and a rapidly shrinking wardrobe of things that fit. I don’t remember it feeling this hard the first time round. There are days when I genuinely want to hide myself away. But despite still feeling huge, despite still having nothing to wear and despite being regularly kicked in the ribs, today I felt something resembling happiness for the first time in ages, and joy. Joy at seeing the beautiful morning unfold. The joy of feeling the beautiful sunshine warm my skin and the joy of feeling joy. For the first time in ages I smiled from the inside, sang from the heart, laughed on the way to work and felt refreshingly carefree.

So what has changed overnight? Nothing, other than I had a proper nights sleep for once. So is it that, or is it that I’ve reached some invisible milestone within my subconscious on the countdown to finishing work and meeting this baby? I genuinely have no idea. But I wanted to capture this moment and this feeling as its been so long since I’ve felt this happy for no reason at all. Being in my own little bubble of happiness is a lovely thing and I really hope that the grey cloud doesn’t return any time soon, because for the first time in ages I can see how blue the sky is and I have to say, it’s pretty beautiful..

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  1. May 2, 2016 / 5:32 am

    Sleep is perhaps the best thing in the world! I think if we got enough every night we could cope with anything. So glad you have this feeling and I hope you hold on to it for ages!! It’s great to have those clear happy moments. Won’t be long till mat leave xx thanks for hosting xx
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  2. May 2, 2016 / 7:31 am

    Oh this is such a lovely post. I am glad the fog has lifted. You be careful and be kind to yourself too πŸ™‚ x #marvmondays
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  3. Lisa
    May 2, 2016 / 8:49 am

    Good to hear the fog lifts and theres hope yet!
    I am in the 2nd trimester and i am still shattered every night and day. Time for a daily nap is much appreciated. Pity i work full time haha
    Great post!
    Lx
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  4. May 2, 2016 / 10:04 am

    Ahh this is lovely, I’m so glad that the fog is lifted. You need to try and rest when possible, I know, I know, and remember that you are doing the most amazing job on the planet, growing that little baby, and there will be times when it all gets too much. Much love. #MarvMondays
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  5. May 2, 2016 / 12:09 pm

    sometimes a good sleep can do you the world of good cant it. I hated the third trimester as my hips hurt so much and made sleep really uncomfy #MarvMondays
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  6. May 2, 2016 / 2:53 pm

    Beautiful photo πŸ™‚ Glad the fog has lifted. All the best for the final … er … lap and preparations for baby number 2
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  7. May 2, 2016 / 3:24 pm

    Glad you are feeling happier and more rested – pregnancy 2 is so much harder than the first one, there is not time to rest second time round! All the best for those last few weeks #marvmondays

  8. May 2, 2016 / 3:56 pm

    Aww sleep makes everything seem a million times better doesn’t it? I can imagine that a second pregnancy is even harder than the first as you don’t get much peace!

  9. May 2, 2016 / 7:52 pm

    I remember telling my wife she had placenta brain lol

  10. May 2, 2016 / 8:05 pm

    So pleased that the fog is lifted, I found the last trimester so frustrating – I was so irritable and just found it impossible to stay still, so sleeping was pretty difficult! It’s amazing what a good night’s sleep can do for your sense of wellbeing – hope it lasts for you. You’re on the home straight now x #MarvMondays

  11. May 2, 2016 / 9:19 pm

    I’m glad the fog has lifted, I hope it stays gone. I remember having that and it wasn’t nice. When I was in the last few months I was super grumpy, it was hot, my feet were all swollen and I just couldn’t sleep. A good nights sleep can really do wonders. Not long left now.x #marvmondays
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  12. May 2, 2016 / 9:34 pm

    Sorry to hear that you have been feeling like you’ve been sat under clouds. Sleep is a very valuable thing and shouldn’t be underestimated. #MarvMondays
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  13. May 3, 2016 / 12:00 am

    This is a lovely uplifting post. I had so many down moments in pregnancy but even more after baby. The days where you feel lighter in everything really do make a difference. You need those days to keep afloat. Sleep definitely makes a huge difference as well as just the fact that a new day has startes. Sometimes we just need a fresh day to put things into perspective. I hope you have more days like this! #KCACOLS

  14. May 4, 2016 / 8:29 am

    So glad you’re feeling better. Sleep realky can make such a difference. I don’t stay up much past 9.30 even when I’m not pregnant! Thanks so much for linking with #KCACOLS. I hope you can come back next Sunday.

  15. May 4, 2016 / 1:48 pm

    I think tiredness can make anyone feel miserable, but when your’re massively pregnant as well, it’s pretty rubbish, impossible to get comfortable, needing to pee all night, all the worries and fears invading. I’m really pleased you are feeling rested and hopefully it’s a sign of how the rest of your pregnancy is going to go. Very exciting times! Thanks for linking up with us! #bigpinklink

  16. May 4, 2016 / 8:16 pm

    I’m pleased the fog has lifted for you. It’s a marathon being pregnant and you’re so close to meeting your sweet baby boy now. Fingers crossed that sky stays blur and you can enjoy the last part of pregnancy without feeling tired and groggy. It’s an awful feeling xx #marvmondays

  17. May 5, 2016 / 10:28 am

    A good night’s sleep can really turn your mood around. I’m deep in the pits of teething sleep deprivation and, also, deep in a fog.
    I remember the joy I felt in my third trimester. All I could think about was baby, and it was almost like nothing else mattered. It truly is such a wonderful thing to watch a new life grow. To feel it move within you. Absolutely wonderful. Thanks for sharing x #KCACOLS

  18. May 5, 2016 / 2:41 pm

    Sleep can be such a beautiful thing and make everything seem so much brighter. Really hope the fog stays lifted for a while – I think you’re right though – the end is now in sight – so exciting – enjoy it lovely and keep well … oh and get some more good nights sleep like that #KCACOL
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  19. May 5, 2016 / 3:40 pm

    Sleep deprivation can cause such a lot of problems, whatever the cause. I am really pleased that you are feeling better. I hope you continue to improve, Emily πŸ™‚ Thanks so much for linking up with #KCACOLS. Hope you return next week πŸ™‚

  20. May 5, 2016 / 7:59 pm

    Awww I’m glad you managed to get a decent nights sleep – it sounds like it was much needed! I hope you manage to enjoy the rest of your pregnancy – not long to go now until you meet your baby boy xx #KCACOLS
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    • May 8, 2016 / 9:28 pm

      Thanks lovely. It was so neeeded. Hopefully I can get a few early nights in each week which will help between now and maternity leave. Not long to go now! πŸ™‚

    • May 8, 2016 / 9:27 pm

      Oh it made such a difference! Fingers crossed it stays this way πŸ™‚

  21. May 6, 2016 / 7:58 am

    Beautiful post! Sounds like you got a much needed good night of sleep – a rarity in the third trimester if I remember right! I hope the fog stays away permanently and the blue skies stay πŸ™‚ #KCACOLS
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    • May 8, 2016 / 9:24 pm

      Thanks lovely, me too! I think maternity leave will definitely help, roll on June! πŸ™‚

  22. May 6, 2016 / 6:51 pm

    I’m glad you’re feeling better, a good night sleep sometimes is all that’s needed isn’t it! I hope things start to get better for you and the fog is now gone xx #kcacols
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    • May 8, 2016 / 9:26 pm

      Thanks. I cant believe what a difference it made! I’m definitely going to try and start getting more early nights in between now and maternity leave, although I have to say these warm evenings are making it a little harder. Roll on June πŸ˜‰

  23. May 7, 2016 / 10:53 am

    Oh Emily! First I’m so sorry that you were feeling like that lately but I’m so happy to hear that you are now feeling better and happier!! All down to a great and long night sleep!! lol I think it is important that now you slow down and just enjoy this part of the pregnancy as it will get harder the closer you are to the due date. I remember at this stage I only wanted this to be over and was desperate to meet my baby lol. I had a programmed c-section so I knew when was going to be that day and i just counted down every single day until that moment. I hope you keep having these happy days. Now that we are having a better weather I really think it contributes a lot to our mood. It brings a smile to people’s faces. I feel happier when we have a sunny day. Thanks so much for sharing this at #KCACOLS. It is always a pleasure to have you, πŸ™‚ xx
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    • May 8, 2016 / 9:21 pm

      Thank you Franca! I know you are right, but work is so demanding and I find it really difficult not to give my all to everything. Even when I know that it would probably be better for me to slow down. I do it to myself and I cant really complain! I am definitely going to try and get a few early nights in each week if I can. I really cant wait until maternity leave now. It feels so close but so far at the same time! I can imagine it is quite nice with a c-section to know exactly when baby will arrive and really prepare yourself for that date. I think that will be the next hurdle, once I start maternity leave and trying not to obsess about when baby will arrive like I did last time! x

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