Two years, seven months and fourteen days. 959 days. 137 weeks. 23,016 hours. 1,380,960 minutes. Three Christmases, two birthdays and now three mothers days with this little girl who captured my heart from the moment she was born. Like any other mother and parent, words can’t even begin to describe just how special she is to me.
There is no rule book for being a mother or being a parent. We are all making it up as we go along. All figuring it out along the way. All learning, every day, every week, every month and every year. Its only when you look back that you realise how far you’ve come, how much you’ve learnt and how much you have grown. Parenting is my biggest life lesson yet. It has taught me patience, it has taught me selflessness and it has taught me who I am as a mother, and that is someone very different to who I was before. It has also shown me what it really means to be happy, to feel alive, to feel pure joy and most importantly, what it feels like to finally be content.
The last 959 days have been the happiest, most confusing, most joyful, most overwhelming days of my life but I wouldn’t change them for the world. Parenting isn’t easy. It wasnt meant to be easy. Raising another human being, teaching them the ways of the world, protecting them from the wrongs of the world, teaching them to be a nice person and for some of us making up for the mistakes of your parents and doing it differently was never going to be easy.
But for all the long and sleepless nights, for all the tantrums, the endless demands on your time, energy and sanity there is the pure, unwavering and unquestionable love from a baby or child that doesn’t care whether or not you are getting it right all the time, doing it all, or whether you are what you think is the perfect mummy, and that I have learnt, is the beauty of it. All my daughter wants and needs from me is my attention, my affection and to feel loved, so if I can always make her feel like she has all three then I know I will have done a great job. One of my favourite quotes of all time which I think perfectly sums up parenting is;
The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return
In four months time I will be lucky enough to bring another little person into this world and be called mummy all over again. Whilst I know it wont be easy having two little ones, I do know it will be a crazy kind of wonderful full of more love that I can comprehend.
So for all the mummies and mummies to be out there, happy Mothers Day.