#BreastfeedingStories Featuring The Pramshed


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Welcome back to the #BreastfeedingStories guest post series, an opportunity to bring together stories from other mums who have breastfeeding experiences that they would like to share.

This weeks guest post features Claire from The Pramshed who reflects on her 10 month breastfeeding journey with bittersweet memories. Knowing its one of the best things you can do for your children, but feeling a pressure to breastfeeding has left her with mixed memories, although she would do it all over again in a heartbeat!


I’ve recently stopped breastfeeding my daughter at the age of 10.5 months after exclusively breastfeeding with the exception of the odd bottle of formula in the early days. She had her last feed 3 weeks ago, I think it was her choice to stop as she pushed me away when I was trying to feed her. I had always wanted to stop breastfeeding before I returned to work, and that’s what happened, it was almost like I had planned it. I can’t say I loved or hated breastfeeding, but when I look back at it now I tend to reflect on the difficult days more so than the good days. I am a positive person, but sometimes I think that breastfeeding made me resent feeding my daughter especially in the beginning.

The Pregnancy

During my pregnancy I felt an unspoken pressure from friends and family to breastfeed my daughter, it felt like there was no other option. As well as pressure from my midwife and NCT leader following the breastfeeding session, who made it look so easy. After you had the baby, place baby’s mouth to nipple and voila you could breastfeed. My midwife also gave me a leaflet, and said if you read this every day you will know how to breastfeed.

I obviously had my concerns, having spoken to friends who told me to stay as long as possible in hospital to get all the help you can with breastfeeding, as it’s hard. Alongside this I had concerns about feeding in public, and feeding in front of family and friends. How would I be able to do it without flashing my boobs to everyone?

Putting all concerns to one side I prepared myself for breastfeeding, purchasing a breast pump, breast pads, nursing bras and tops. No bottles or formula were purchased.

The Beginning

After a 60-hour induced labour and C-Section, I finally got to properly meet my little girl back in our room on the labour ward. She had skin-to-skin time with Daddy whilst I was being stitched up. I was literally shaking and shivering holding her, a result of all the drugs pumped into me as part of the induction and the epidural too. I remember trying to get her to latch on but I found it so difficult to hold her (she was 9lbs 4oz) and support her with a really painful C-section wound. We really tried to get her to latch, but continued to struggle.

Once we were moved to the maternity ward that’s when feeding became the focus. We were still having trouble with the latch, so we had to hand syringe colostrum from my nipples into her mouth, I’m sure my husband really enjoyed helping syringe colostrum for me. After a while the midwives were concerned about the amount of colostrum our daughter was getting, it was only 1ml here or there. At the end of day 1 my nipples were so sore from hand expressing. It was then that we made a decision to give her a formula feed, as she was obviously hungry and needed food.

The hospital were brilliant at breastfeeding support. We attended a talk with their breastfeeding specialist, as well as her helping me to find the correct latch and showing me how to feed with a feeding cushion as my biggest problem was having little one laying across my scar. I found the My Breast Friend cushion to be amazing, I cannot recommend it enough.

Once we were discharged from hospital it all went a bit downhill, my milk came in and I got really emotional. The day the midwife came out for our 5 day check our daughter had lost over 10% of her birth weight even though she was feeding. We were told to give her 2 x 90ml of formula a day and to feed her every 2 hours (including during the night). I felt like a human cow after this, I felt like I was constantly feeding, and I hated it. She would also be super chilled out after having a formula feed which made me think that breastfeeding wasn’t working. But I persevered.

The Middle

Breastfeeding started getting easier around the 6-week mark, before that we had some really long days and nights of feeding all day and night. I found the nights to be loneliest, sitting in our spare room feeding our baby whilst my husband slept. Thank god it was Summer so it was light at 4.30am making the night not seem so long. I lost count of the number of mornings I was up feeding hearing the first planes go into Heathrow.

I was nervous about feeding our daughter in public, her first public feed was in the doctors surgery after her 2-week weigh in. She would not stop screaming and I knew I had to feed her to get her to calm down. Fortunately it went well with no latch issues, and it was then I realised that no-one bats an eyelid. This then gave me a small boost of confidence to feed her out and about.

My NCT ladies were a wealth of support for me and also for each other. We all started off breastfeeding, and just being out with them who were also breastfeeding made it easier for me to do. Where we live there are so many breastfeeding friendly cafes, restaurants and pubs which put my mind at ease.

I also learnt that breastfeeding was an excellent tool for getting our baby to sleep, as every night after her bath I used to feed her to sleep. We had an awful time when she hit 4-months old with waking every hour, and every hour I would feed her back. This went on for 2-months, until I stopped feeding to sleep. It was hard to change the routine, but it worked eventually, and slowly her night wakings reduced dramatically.

The End

Breastfeeding habits started to change when we started weaning our daughter, she used to feed every 1.5 – 2 hours during the day. Slowly as food was introduced, meals started to replace breastfeeds. I noticed that I didn’t feel as full as I used to, or get quite a strong let down.

Teething was also pretty hellish for breastfeeding too, especially with the odd bite here and there. Once you are bitten by your baby, the fear of latching them back on is terrible.

We were down to about 2 feeds a day at 9 months, and often I was having to force the feed on her. I felt that it was coming to an end, and it ended one day when she pushed me away and I knew she didn’t want anymore.

Since stopping I haven’t had any problems with excess supply to meet no demand, or had to express. As we stopped gradually my body adjusted, my boobs are now flat pancakes, in fact I can’t even remember what they looked like before.

I hope that this hasn’t come across in a negative way, breastfeeding is hard, it’s exhausting and all-consuming. But, would I do it again so I know my child is getting the best……….yes!


If you’ve got a breastfeeding story you would like to share as part of the series please get in touch with me at mypetitcanard@hotmail.com or on Twitter. I’d love to help you share your #BreastfeedingStories.

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  1. July 20, 2016 / 7:58 am

    It’s lovely to hear your story Claire – I didn’t get on very well with breastfeeding and only managed about 6 weeks, and some part of me wishes I had perservered. Feeling like a human cow is such a good description! I’m so pleased you had a great experience with it 🙂
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  2. July 24, 2016 / 6:24 am

    So nice to hear your story! I really wish I had perservered too, my daughter lost quite a bit of weight and struggled gaining and all I got from my health team was abuse and hardly any support, I was pretty much threatened into formula feeding and as a new mum, emotional and recovering from a c-section too it was just horrible. I was pretty young at the time too but I am so glad I lasted the time I did!
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