Tired and heavy is probably the best description, but more so in the evenings than in the daytime luckily. I remember feeling quite fed up of being pregnant by this time the first time round which I havent started to feel yet. I’m guessing that may be because I have only just started maternity at 37 weeks whereas last time I think I started around 35 weeks, and it hasn’t been as hot as it was when the first time round. Theres so much to do between now and baby arriving that I think the next few weeks may fly by. If I’m feeling like I am now then it hopefully should be pretty manageable and pleasant.
I’ve noticed over the last week or two that the cramps and the Braxton hicks have stepped up a notch, becoming more frequent and noticeable. They’re uncomfortable, but manageable and hopefully in preparation for birth and not in vain!
For once my emotions seem to have been in check over the last few weeks. Even though the last few weeks at work weren’t any less demanding or stressful, it probably helped knowing that I was really close to starting maternity leave. The husband commented earlier this week that I seem a little excited, and on reflection I think I am. I hadn’t realised it but I’m feeling quite excited knowing that we’re so close now and that I can really start to focus on preparing myself for whats about to come.
What I’m Enjoying The Most So Far
Maternity leave and actually having the freedom and time to get things done. It definitely feels different from the first time round, when the hours and days slowly stretched ahead with not much to fill them with. This time round, even though I’m on maternity there is still lots to do already having a little one around. There is still a day time and family routine to maintain and all the usual things to get done, but its nice to have the space to think about what I need to get done and then make the time to do it. I’m constantly wondering these days about where my waters will break (if they break) and where I’ll be when it all starts to happen. I hate not knowing, especially when there is so much more to consider this time round like who will look after the little lady when we have to go to hospital, but I know it’s all out of our control so we’ll just have to go with the flow and hope for the best!
What I’m Missing The Most So Far
At this stage not a lot. I think you accept that this far into pregnancy it’s all just a bit hard and tiring, especially second time round. My old friend insomnia seems to have reappeared so at the moment I am missing a decent nights sleep on some nights, but hopefully that wont have as much as an impact now that I’m on maternity leave and don’t have to do a day in the office.
What I’m Looking Forward To
The end of pregnancy and finally meeting this little one. I really cant wait to see what he looks like, to hold him in my arms and introduce him too his little sister. I cant wait to see the little lady’s face and see how she is with him after watching her bond with my bump for so long. I am expecting there will probably be a bit of a bumpy patch where we all need to adjust to life as a family of four, but at the same time it feels like he will complete our little unit. After spending the first few months worrying that having a new baby would disrupt our lovely little family dynamic as a three, it now feels like we need him to complete us.
A couple of stretch marks leading me to believe this baby will be bigger! I really can’t believe that I have found a couple of stretch marks this late into my pregnancy. I really thought that I was going to get away relatively unscathed second time round also. I can’t really complain though as it is just the one under my belly button which is where my belly is the most stretched, and in a way it is quite sweet because I have one tiny one from when I was pregnant with the little lady and this new one which means that both my children have left a tiny reminder and mark of where they were on me. I probably wont think of it that way in six months time, but its nice to think of it that way at the moment!
Week 35 – 37 Highlights
So many things! Finishing work and starting maternity leave has to have been the biggest highlight. It’s so nice not to have to do the daily commute, struggle with what to wear each day and end each day feeling mentally and physically exhausted. As you may have picked up from my previous bump updates, I might be a little bit of a workaholic so I’ve had trouble switching off properly from work this week and have found myself sending the odd email here and there and peeking at my work blackberry every so often. But I’ve promised myself that I’ll properly switch off next week!
Spending time with the little lady has to be the next highlight. Now that I am on maternity leave we have dropped her days down at nursery from five days a week to two days a week which means we get three whole lovely days together. I want to make sure we make the most of those days before baby arrives so am trying to squeeze in lots of mini adventures together which you can read more about in my maternity leave plans post.
Finally being able to get the house ready for the littlest ones arrival has also been really nice and has taken a small weight off my shoulders. Over the bank holiday weekend we assembled and set up our gorgeous SnuzPod in our room which was very exciting after wanting to open it for weeks now and I’ve finally packed our hospital bags, eek.
We also had our 36 week midwife check which was all fine. We’re still measuring as we should be and the midwife confirmed that baby was 3/5ths engaged, yay!
I’m guessing I have at least one more of these updates to write, but potentially this could be my last post which is both a very exciting and scary thought!